Hi Happy people. I wanted to take a moment to share a deeply personal aspect of my life journey with you all. I used to be the type of person who seemed to leave a trail of destruction wherever I went, both in my relationships and in my own life. Looking back, I realize now that this destructive behavior stemmed from a painful upbringing and a lack of understanding about healthy emotional expression.
Growing up, my parents worked tirelessly to provide for our family, but their demanding schedules meant they often didn't have time to listen to our thoughts and feelings. As a result, my sibling and I faced punishment without the opportunity to share our side of the story. I believe my parents' exhaustion led to this approach – a misguided attempt to instill discipline. However, what I experienced was not love, but a form of physically abusive and emotionally draining discipline that left scars on my heart.
During those moments of isolation and punishment in my youth, I would often find solace in my dreams. I would close my eyes and imagine a world where I was an artist, dancing, singing, and basking in the love and praise that seemed elusive in my life. In those vivid dreams, I felt a sense of freedom that transcended the physical boundaries that confined me.
Dancing, especially, became a form of healing for me. As I moved to the rhythm, I could almost feel the pain of the physical marks fading away. Each step was a step towards reclaiming my body, my identity, and my spirit from the scars of the past. The music embraced me like a warm embrace, soothing the wounds that no one could see. In those moments, I truly experienced the power of art as a form of therapy.
Likewise, my budding talent for singing allowed me to express my emotions and experiences in ways that words alone could not convey. The lyrics I would create, much like the ones I write today, were my way of painting a new reality – one where love, joy, and celebration reign supreme. With each verse, I wove a tapestry of my own imagination, transporting myself to a world where I was surrounded by lights, laughter, and an overwhelming sense of belonging. These dreams fueled my desire to create upbeat and celebratory songs that reflect my yearning for a life filled with positivity and exuberance.
Carrying this emotional baggage into adulthood had a profound impact on my relationships. I had learned to respond to situations with offense and treated others in a way that mirrored the harsh treatment I had grown accustomed to. It was a cycle that seemed impossible to break.
But the turning point came when I realized I needed to confront my past and actively work towards healing. Therapy became my safe space, a place where I could unravel the tangled threads of my past and make sense of my emotions. I also found solace and guidance through my relationship with faith. Through daily reflection and connecting with my spiritual beliefs, I began to understand the importance of self-love and respect.
It wasn't an overnight transformation, but a gradual process of self-discovery and growth. One of the pivotal lessons I learned was that I needed to love and respect myself first before I could expect the same from others. I set clear boundaries and started treating myself with kindness and compassion. Slowly but surely, I began to shift my interactions with the world around me.
On August 24th, I will be celebrating my fourth wedding anniversary with Richard, the person who has been a pillar of support throughout this journey. Together, we've created a space where we can embrace our inner child, learn, play, and most importantly, love each other unconditionally. Our relationship is built on kind words and actions, and each day becomes an opportunity for mutual growth and discovery.
My involvement with my church has also played a significant role in my transformation. Connecting with my faith community has provided me with a strong support system and a sense of belonging. It has helped me channel my experiences into my creative pursuits, making me a better artist and, more importantly, a better human being.
I share this story to reflect on my own growth and inspire others who might be grappling with their own challenges. It's never easy to break free from destructive patterns, but with self-reflection, therapy, faith, and the support of loved ones, overcoming even the most painful of pasts is possible. Remember, the journey toward healing and transformation is ongoing, and every day is an opportunity for growth.
Thank you for being a part of my journey, and I look forward to sharing more positive experiences and growth with all of you. The video below will explain why I embrace the blessing of being an entertainer with love and gratitude. That is because when we're all having fun, all that matters is the Joy we feel and leave behind everything that weighs in on us. And I invite you to watch more videos on our Official Youtube artist channel and listen to our songs on your favorite streaming service. I know You'll love the experience of traveling to a universe where only magic and happiness exist. Enjoy!
